I've been home for three weeks marked tomorrow. It's hard to believe it's already been that long, and I still don't have my stuff. I have literally nothing to my name, except some clothes, books, bed, and stuffed animals. It really sucks, because I have nothing to post art with, since the scanner/fax machine was actually Deedee's, and my dad's is hard to use since he doesn't like people using his. My camera is slaughtered, and I'm sure as HELL not going to get a new one soon, and it's not like I can just fancy up a new one, nor' can I have the old one fixed. As well, my tablet is on the verge of breaking. So, I'm pretty much shit out of luck. Maybe this is "gods" way of telling me to stop neglecting you guys, other wise he will break my shit...Lol. Though I don't know if I truly believe in god. Anyways, that's not important.

Deedee has all my stuff as "ransom" still in La Habra, and I'm pissed. Remember that car door I damaged? Well, Tiffany got the estimate. IT'S 850$ MOTHER FUCKIN' DOLLARS. SUPPOSEDLY, she sent some stuff down (and got two tickets on her way to do so), but I myself don't know. That was what was told to me by my father, though I haven't a clue had she really sent my stuff. She has:

♫ My Computer
♫ My Canvases and Paints
♫ My Prismacolors Pencils and Markers
♫ My Guitars, The Kelly and the SG
♫ My Amp, and its cords
♫ My GT-10 Guitar FX pedal
♫ My Video games and Video game systems (N64, SNES, WII, and about 150 games between the three)

And that is everything I own, pretty much. All the good stuff. I've been using my brother's computer for the last few days, actually, past three weeks. It's kind of sucked because I don't want to go on a billion sites on someone else's computer, so I'm limited on what I can do. As well, he doesn't have any art programs besides paint because he isn't an artist, so I can't CG. Oh well. I just hope my stuff gets here soon.

Since I've been back I've been pretty cooped up, especially over break. I didn't do much, but I have an assignment for Art II to work on over break -- and I haven't even started. I'm drawing a ballroom dancing scene, colored with oil pastel. I love Oil Pastel. Yeah...Also, thanksgiving was a major bust, as I thought. My dad got drunk (what a selfish bastard), and he pretty much scared My sister's girlfriend, Monica, and our housekeeper/friend, Christina, to death when he "tried to scare Harlan", when he really was so drunk, he fell off balance and hit his chin on the back of the chair. Since my mom was thrown in Jail he's been MORE drunk. He misses her...so damn much. And it's funny how, when your back is against the wall, how you "Find Jesus". No. I don't believe in that. I DO believe that there IS a greater power than man, but I don't believe that you can just "be saved by Jesus" because you "Did wrong and have forgiven yourself". But anyways, it still pains me that my own mother - the very person who created me, is in jail, and she is still fighting that High speed chase case back from January this year.

I really can't wait for Christmas because it's another family time and our family is not only small but broken up, we hardly speak to each other anymore and it's quite sad. I saw my sister for the first time in months yesterday for thanksgiving dinner, which was very nice. But I never know when I will see her again. She's so busy with College, and my brother's off at Work and College, so he comes home every night at midnight, so I hardly see him anymore...and soon, he'll move out, and I'll be alone with my dad. I love him, but I seriously think he's going to die in late 2009 or early 2010. He's NOT healthy. He's lonely. And he's hurt. I love him, but I think he needs to go. But if he does pass, I don't know where I'm going to live. A lot of things are very frail right now, so I hope all goes well...

But on a lighter note, I think I may get either the intuous4 for Christmas or a new LG VU phone. My Razor is beaten to CRAP lol. I also asked my sister for sculpey clay to make a servbot out of clay:



Wouldn't it be cool to have a Servbot statue? Well, I'm making one, as long as I get the stuff! I didn't really want a bunch of things this year. I want my stuff back from Deedee, and I want mostly clothes. Fuzzy clothes, Scarves, and Russian Hats! (You know Andrew got me a hat from the military surplus? lol) But yeah...not much else to put. I have to head to bed, I'm using my brothers computer and he wants to sleep since he's been up since 3 for working black Friday. Hope I can get my own computer back soon!

I miss my Andrew. I love him so much, and I can't wait till' I'm 18, I have a car, can drive, and can go live with him. I will be so happy. My heart is forever engraved to him.

♥ Я тебя люблю Андрю, навсегда и всегда.♥



And my [infected] foot is bothering me again...